My youth is dedicated to spinach!

I am just an obscure spinach industry worker who has never posted before, but now I want to reflect on the past few years. From being a young man in my early twenties when I first got involved with spinach, I am now nearly thirty and still broke. I admit I have failed.

I first got involved with spinach in 2017 through online gambling sites. After losing money, I resorted to various online loans and eventually couldn't pay them back, which led to my contacts being leaked. By chance, I learned about this industry in the Philippines and thought since things were already bad, I might as well try my luck there to pay off my debts.

In 2018, I set off for the Philippines and started working 12-hour days at a Fujian panel, typing away. Initially, I was excited and gradually started to build my own network. At that time, the base salary was only 6k, and the commission depended on the turnover. After working for a year, I took a vacation and returned in 2019. Those years were indeed good until the pandemic hit in 2021. By then, I had saved almost 40k and decided to go home, thinking I would never return.

Back in my country, I couldn't find a suitable job. With money in hand, I spent over a year indulging in food and fun until my savings were gone. In 2023, I returned to the Philippines. This time, I did make some money, but after getting involved with the baccarat games at the Philippine casinos, I ended up spending almost all my earnings each month. I wonder how much others in the gray industry have saved. Should I just give up and go back home to work in a factory? But I can't let go of the prime years of my life. Please go easy on me!